My Truth Untold

This short story was inspired and contains referenced lyrics from the song called Truth Untold by kpop group BTS

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He yelled at me "Please, don't leave me."

I turned back; done with his bullshit. All of this bullshit.

"I can't take it anymore Kevin, I'm done playing your games. Clearly, I always lose..."

It was dark out, my cheeks getting rosy as the winter wind caressed them. We were meters apart, quietly breathing through this momentary silence after I spoke once again.

That's what all of this was from the very beginning; just ear deafening silence.

'Please end this...I'm so afraid.'

Our once blooming rose garden, now strangled to death by the neck with it's thorns. What I hated the most was how much I still loved him. I loved this man in front of me. He smiled on me, right on me, causing the endless cycle of heartache and forgiveness.

He was a player, "You know I can't show you me, give you me." He didn't want to be tied down with just one lover when he can have a billion, running around his fingertips. After all, I was the only male; an easily vulnerable target, amongst the sea of women he slept with. I'm not enough to fully satisfy him mentally nor physically. I was never enough.

But I still want him.

I was too weak, afraid of losing the one I loved. Even though he never felt the same, this one-sided kind of love.

This love story untold, now known throughout. I can leave him. I don't need this.

I lie.

'Don't leave me' I thought. Here I am leaving the one who hurt me all these years.

Here we are...and I still want you.